Spiritual Sybil

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Bismillah!

“He it is Who created you, but one of you is a disbeliever and one of you is a believer.  And Allah is Seer of what  you do.” Surah 64:2

I usta think the above verse was solely talking about two different people…you know like, a husband and a wife…or two believers…but the more I study myself the more I have started to think it can also be talking about one person…a person who God knows has issues, issues with submitting our will to His.

When I read it now, it reads like…

“Your initial creation, you know the one that naturally inclines toward righteousness…God is responsible for…but, this hybrid you are now…yeah, that’s all you…and all that trifling stuff you do when you think no one is around…um, yeah, God sees you.”

Just a lil’ something to think about…

REVENGE

Bismillah!

“The day when they come forth. Nothing concerning them remains hidden from Allah. To whom belongs the kingdom this day?  To Allah, the One, the Subduer (of all).  This day every soul is rewarded what it has earned.  No injustice this day! Surely Allah is Swift in Reckoning. And warn them of the day that draws near , when hearts, grieving inwardly, rise up to the throats.  The iniquitous will have no friend, nor any intercessor who should be obeyed.  He knows the dishonesty of eyes and that which the breasts conceal.  And Allah judges with truth. And those whom they call upon besides Him judge naught!  Surely Allah is the Hearing, the Seeing.” Surah 40:16-20

No matter how much we want that person stricken with leprosy RIGHT NOW for doing us wrong…it won’t happen unless God wants it too.

No matter how much we want that person relieved from his/her post RIGHT NOW for doing us wrong…it won’t happen unless God wants it too.

No matter how much we want that person to feel the same pain we are feeling RIGHT NOW for doing us wrong…it won’t happen unless God wants it too.

Sometimes God just wants to see what we’re gonna do when we are tried. Many of us quote scripture all day long… (me included)Vengeance is mine saith the Lord…forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors.  But, I gotta say, we don’t really think about the scriptures…if we did we wouldn’t pray that way…cuz if God forgave us like we forgive we’d be messed up. Do we really believe in a day of judgement or is it that we just don’t have patience with God?  I mean do we really believe that there is a God of justice? Do we really believe God has our back?  If so, how do we show it?  Especially when adversity strikes?    When we’re in a relationship and something happens that we don’t like…even though we SAY everything happens by Allah’s permission…how do we react? Do we take it to God first or do we want the whole world to know our version of said events? (And Allah judges with truth. And those whom they call upon besides Him judge naught! ) God knows our pain…look how that above scripture talks about “when hearts, grieving inwardly, rise up to the throats” Y’all know them kinda tears that be all up in your throat…can’t even breath…He knows, let Him be our salve…let Him send His tranquility!  I know its easier said than done…but its doable and gets easier with time…just have to TRY GOD.

I’m just saying…maybe, just maybe if we tried doing what we say we believed, God would handle our hurt and the ones who hurt us. When we take our minds off revenge we can get more good accomplished…when we take our minds off of looking for evidence in cellphones, computers, and emails we probably could find a cure for cancer or at least ourselves in a better relationship…

Mad @ God

Bismillah….

So, I was up this morning reading the Quran and ran across this scripture…

Surah 41:23-“And that, your (evil) thought which you entertained about your Lord, ruined you, so you have become of the lost ones.”

It’s hard to admit to oneself that you have the audacity too be mad at the Lord of the worlds…I mean even I have the good sense to know that I shouldn’t go there…but there I go.

I know that God tries us all…the Quran tells us that we are given what?,  at least two severe ones annually…so what is it about us that makes us buck when we face one? Seeing as though God knows us best…He did form us in our mothers wombs didn’t he?  He knows what to try us with to extract impurities from of us, to make us better people…something we have all asked for…but then the trial sets in a we wild out…

So a couple years ago God hit me with a trial years in the making…a trial that coldcocked me…so hard  like in Ali knocking out Liston…so after I realized what happened I realized I was mad at God…I was like, “for real God…really….. but I’m on my Deen…how could you? I so do not deserve this! That is all all types of wrong!” So, I shift from gratitude praying to how could you/judgemental praying….dangerous territory, man…and the bad part about it is that I didn’t even realize it was happening…I was so wrapped up in my pain, that I didn’t keep a tab on my spiritual pulse…and when you don’t do that it’s very easy too flatline. So for a while, things started going from bad to worse; and I couldn’t figure out why…probably because I was asking the wrong questions.

One of the things Minister Farrakhan states is that when you ‘re going through a trial, you have to study the trial.  You must look into it and extract the lesson.  Trust the lesson is not “God, I don’t deserve this!” nor is it “God, you ‘re bogus for this one!”

Now, don’t get me wrong, I didn’t outright say these things…but truss I truly felt this way…and as the scripture above says…I was lost.  I couldn’t find my way back to a peaceful relationship with God, and as we know when your relationship with God is jacked up…all others closely follow…I was lost from what things made me happy…I couldn’t find joy in anything….why? In my honest opinion it’s because I was entertaining “evil thoughts about my Lord” and until I got it together I was …as my church fam would say…blocking  my “blessings (-:)

The point? When we’re going through something…or even if we’re not we gotta always check our spiritual pulse and our attitude cuz nobody humbles like The God! It’s ok to question God…just keep it humble! (Jesus did ask, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”)  It’s even ok to not understand why you’re going through something…just pray for understanding with a humble heart..recognize you’re talking to God and ain’t trying to catch an aneurysm in this piece.